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meri zubaan se mein kuch keh nahi paa raha kese batau ki jo ho raha hai samne mere mein wo seh nahi paa raha meri zubaan se mein kuch keh nahi paa raha..... har insan ke paas koi hai ya wo insan kisi ka hai sab aate hai or khel ke chale jaate hai meri zindgi se ye sab ho raha hai mere samne par is sach ke sath me khush reh nahi paa raha wazan utha raha hu jese rishton me jese maut ko de raha hu me har pal meri zindgi kishton me ab har pal mujhe jese bardashath karna padta hai jo insan kabhi zinda tha ab wo mere andar sadta hai cheekh raha hu mein bahut tez par jese koi sun nahi paa raha jo sapne tut chuke hai mein unhe waps bun nahi paa raha meri zubaan se mein kuch keh nahi  paa raha..... mein kese kahu kisi ko ki mujhe kis chiz se taqleef hai koi samjhata kyu nahi ki wo mere kitna nazdeek hai mein bar-bar dukh pahucha  raha  hu khud ko naye insan se nayi ummid karta hu fir tod deta h

darta hu mein darta hu mein..... apne ap ko khone se tera hone se darta hu mein..... apne dil ki baat kehne se mere puchne par tere mana karne ka dukh sehne se darta hu mein..... dhokha khane se fir or datra hu mein ye mauka gawane se mujhe nahi pata ye dar kesa hai jismani nahi ye to rooh ke tut jane jesa hai mujhe nahi pata ki kya jayaz hai tujhe nahi lagta shayd par dil todna na-jayaz hai dar lagta hai mujhe..... dil tut jaane se darta hu mein..... tera sath choot jaane se dar hai mujhe  tu ye padh ke kahi naraz naa ho jaae dar hai mujhe ki ek - dusre ko chup-chup kar dekhne ka hamara silsila yahi khatm na ho jaae khwaish hai mujhme jine ki himmat nahi hai ab chup rehkar sare gam pine ki bs isiliye darta hu mein..... ki kahi ham jyda paas na aa jaae ek dusre ke jeene ki aas na ban jaae darta hu mein..... ki kahi kuch galat ho gaya to teri taraf se mohbbat milne ke bad bhi kisi teesre shaqs ki wajh se mein tujhse alag ho gaya to cha

samay nikal hi jata hai bura ho to tal jata hai achha ho to kat jata hai samay jo hai nikal hi jata hai ek pal me andhera hai iske or fir dusre pal nai subh hai lakho chehre hai iske or har chehre ki nai zuban hai sirf yaadon me rehna fitrat hai iski or sirf bato me kaha jata hai samay kesa bhi ho nikal jata hai n rukta hai ye kisi ke liye na hi kisi ko rukne deta hai na hi pyara hai isko koi or na hi khud se kisi ko mohbbat karne deta hai zindgi ke har mukam pr logo ke asli rang dikhata hai samay nikal hi jata hai sab chalte hai iske sath ye kiske liye nahi thehrata samne chahe parmatma bhi ho ye kisi ke aage nahi jhukta ye har kadam pr tumhe naye sabak sikhata hai kon achha hai or kon bura hai tumhare liye har shaqs ka nakab hatata hai moka deta hai sabko lekin samay samay par hi nikal jata hai na iska koi dharm hai na iski koi zaat hai isko lagav to nahi kisi se par ye sabke sath